It's been a few days since I last blogged. I have been really busy with Business stuff and starting a new job amongst other things. It is all rather overwhelming. Trying to be and do everything all the time is ridiculous! Sometimes I wonder why I put myself through this, as it is, a choice.
I am trying to keep it together, juggling multiple things in unison, and for what? For prolonged fatigue, a ticket on the zzzzz train? I have realised that I am over-commiting and it is not a good look. Chinese classes, volunteering, full-time work, studying for an exam, blogging, Mother, Girlfriend, Employee, Baby sitting, keeping the home - it is too much!! Yes, so many people do it I hear you say, but to their detriment. I do not want to go out like that.
It is impossible to make an impact if you are plagued by exhaustion. Running yourself into the ground is a sure way to an early grave. So I have decided to cut back on some of the many things I am doing at once and focus on doing a smaller amount of things, and to do them well.
The whole point is to be bliss, yawning in a meeting due to lack of sleep is not bliss. Counting down the hours so the day is over and you can go to bed is not a good look. I am supposed to be chasing a dream, not chasing a nightmare. All this busyness is a nightmare.
In my aim to give more in value than what I receive in cash value, I need to reassess my game plan. The impact I can have in my work, business, and home life can be so much more fulfilling if I focus more. How do we manage? Does it mean that by not being obsessed with busyness that we are not good enough?
If that is the case, then I can accept not being good enough. It is time to say No.
John Lennon said: 'Life is what happens to you when your busy making plans.'
I don't want to be so busy I miss the enjoyment of life. I say it again - It is time to say No.